I think my hope with this blog is that maybe someday…..someone going through a similar situation might read this. Or maybe just a friend or family member reading this might be able to help someone else that might be battling cancer or going through a rough time.
Anyway, to that end, I’ve been feeling really sick the last couple of days …..and when you’re sick and vulnerable that’s when the fear and doubt creep in (for me). Tonight was one of those times. Most of the time I try to hold back the tears and be strong especially in public. But my husband and family see a different side of me when I don’t feel well. God doesn’t require perfection from me. I have to remind myself of that. But I really do try my best every single day.
Anyway, as I was getting worked up tonight I asked my husband to re-read a couple of devotionals to me and it made me feel better (literally almost instantaneously), so I thought I would share. God knows how to quiet our fears when we can’t ourselves.
The passage in yellow really spoke to me and to my husband. This process hasn’t been easy on me……and I know it can’t be easy on him either. But, I’m still so happy and grateful to be here on earth. I thank God every single day for that.
Tomorrow I’ll go get labs so the doctors can determine what’s going on with my white blood cell count (totally normal at this stage to be neutropenic and run down). Hoping I can get some sleep tonight and rest.
Goodnight friends, and as always. Keep those prayers coming 🙂
-Holly Hollis Stars-
P.S. I’m making a conscious decision NOT to proof this 💜
P.S.S. My friend dropped off a little treat at my house on HER birthday, how sweet is that? Also, Mark is leaning over my shoulder right now and said “be sure to tell them how cool your hubs is.” (He’s never at a loss for humor) 🙂 And for the record, he is the best. In case I haven’t said it a million times.