Hi friends! I’ve had 9 treatments so far and I’m honestly starting to feel pretty worn down…..BUT I was able to get a lunchtime workout in on Monday which made me feel better! (Pic above is from Monday and with one of my favorite OTF instructors). If I’m healthy enough for chemo tomorrow, that will be cycle 6, day 1 (and my 10th treatment!)

I had lab work done on Tuesday and my white blood cell/neutrophil numbers were at an all time low…..which is to be expected at this stage of the process, but it’s still hard to hear. I had a Zarxio shot on Tuesday and another today, so we are praying that will get my numbers where they need to be by tomorrow. So, say some prayers for good labs tomorrow morning! 🙂

In other news, my lashes have finally started to fall out this week….which admittedly was a little sad at first. It’s strange to look in the mirror and not see the person I’m used to seeing ……and not to have much (well, any) control over that aspect of things. In those moments, I have to remind myself that I don’t have to look perfect during this process. No one expects that and it doesn’t matter. What does matter is that I’m here on earth, enjoying my husband, my family, and wonderful friends. That’s worth more than any lashes 🙂

Anyway, when the nurse handed me my lab report today (from Monday) I was having a hard time keeping my fears in check and living with so much uncertainty (hence the “hurry up and wait” title). But, I was able to chat with my friend Elizabeth and before I knew it, I was laughing at her hilarious (and honest) stories about parenting. I also FaceTimed my sweet friend Bevin and my Dad which helped lift my spirits. If anyone reading this is having a hard time….reach out to someone you care about. It might just brighten your day 🙂

Mark and I ended the day by reading a devotional and praying together. After that, I’m feeling at peace with whatever hand we are dealt tomorrow. I’m still here, still fighting.

-xo-

Holly Hollis Stars